Frustrations and fluidity

when time has no meaning, it's hard to follow a timeline. Plans are made spur of the moment wise and change precipitously. And if a task doesn't get done, well, there is always tomorrow. Sadly this means the checks on the to do list are fewer and fewer unless you have focus, motivation and determination. The days where all three of those attributes are there are also fewer and fewer.

This leads to frustration and as I don't have anywhere else to lose this, it tends to back up on those closest around me. And then I hear about it. Almost as soon as my eyes are open sometimes, I hear about it.

I think I'm still trying to find my way in this employment free zone.  If I don't zoom around all day, am I not being productive? If I read or craft, is it a waste of time?

Much like moving your geographic location doesn't change you, life isn't a sparkling shiny new place once you stop working outside the home.
I need to lose some of those preconceived notions behind me in the dust and just make my own path.