In need of a 180 or as the kids say, "do-over!"

I think it all started early yesterday. In the last 24 hours:

• A young man I trained was promoted. I'm pleased for him. It's a job I would have reached for had I still been in that state at that company. Happy for him but frustrated that I haven't let my tenure there go yet. I thought it was behind me.
• My knitting project which has been torn apart twice, is still too short. 
• Started another random project and was pleased with the beginning results but alas, it too, was too short. I have no more matching yarn in the stash so just adding is not an option.
• Over indulged in dinner. Hadn't done that in quite some time so trying to shed the shame of that
• Woke up with dreams of someone from my past that morphed into being chased down by monster trucks solely for the sport of trying to kill me. Perhaps I'll have the wherewithal to interpret this dream later but right now...not so much.

So. I need to turn this around. This is where faith is supposed to step in and I should divest myself of my burdens. Trouble is, sometimes I think I'm more addicted to hurting myself in this never ending cycle than I am serious about growing and starting the next chapter of my life.  The next one is going to be hard.  I've always shied away from difficulty though end up in the middle of it anyway!

No one looks at this blog so it may be time to end it. Lots of things to consider today.