The roller coaster

So yesterday I stepped off the curb of indecision and sent a resume across the inter web to a former co-worker. I should say, last night.  We'd had a power outage and appointment 30 minutes away so after that and a reboot of computer, I finally sent it off.  For a position I'm not certain I even want.

One half of me is relieved and one half says "why the bleep has no one called?" It's been 21 hours already.  For a job I'm not even sure I want.

Blueman gets at least one if not two calls per day. We also receive one to four telemarketer calls per day. I mostly just blink when the phone rings, it rarely for me. But now? I am tensing up for a call that may not come for a job I don't know if I want.

Tomorrow it won't be so difficult. Tomorrow I'll pretend to have forgotten the prickliness of wondering if I have any worth to the working force. Tomorrow I'll keep myself occupied enough that I don't have to wonder if this is even a job I want.